No road too long.

One thing for sure. Ur not gonna go far if ull stay in bed forever.
I always knew that the World is a big place,but just only recently finally managed to put it in my head that the time for traveling and exploring is now,not just next year or "maybe some day",as we usually say for almost everyone and for anything.
Sounds funny, but one of the biggest "kick ass" was "Sex and the City". An old TV series that ive seen once long time ago and now watching with a new sense of understanding. Bloody hell, that comedy really represents what friendship,relationship and adventures actually means in our world. The best thing about it is, that actors in that series does have problems. Real ones,not just broken nails and perfect make up fails like mostly in modern life movies. In the end of the day, comedy is how we could call our real lives. Damn, if most of us istead of complaining over a broken car could just call a friend and say, dude im somewhere close to the end of the world waiting for u to bring me whiskey and give me a ride home, world would be a better place to live in. And there would be more exciting things to remember...
I may not be an early bird for the last 5 years of my life but the least I can do is enjoy the nights and afternoons with a rocking music and a big smile splashing the colours on the empty canvas. Canvas is another definition for life. Im never 100% happy with my paintings,but one thing for sure- I am proud, couse I create, and do mistakes I know I will try to escape next time. U live and learn. And bit by bit mixing the colors of life ,u create something whats only saint for you and the closest people around you. You create the painting worth millions. Not money wise. Its just a million of memories put together enjoying what every day brings.
Carpe diem.
There is no road too long to reach your goals.
Good luck x.

Breathe in rain

If if if
U put it as a ryme
And
then

its like it never happened.

U close yours eyes
And make a choice like
Catnip.

Would make u feel happy

As u had four legs
And no force of life
To be lived and ....

Then choice of
Regret
To be killed.

Couse u know
There is always a thrill
Eating u to
Forget and forgive

And then one more time
Kill me and kill
Till i have no way...
 Just to feel...
That you have to
Run
Touch
And stay still

I go back to the night i cant kill
One more time
And I almost forgive

Say goodbye to the rain that can chill
Couse I wish U will never stay still

There is a reason for everything.

And then you choose if you just see the reason not to do so, or to look for another reason to do things in a new way.

I didn't know where to go until....

...I reached a crossroad.
Then I realised that I could go basically anywhere my feet would take me.

One and a half year I spent in a small box, trying to think outside of it, till finally the box locked my body inside without any light coming through the windows. One good thing about it is, that I didn't let my thoughts to be locked as well. It was an experiment, that let me learn how to live with a small amount of money,small amount of people around me and helped me to gain self confidence of living on my own. It was an interesting period of my life , but I guess it always comes a time to move on and explore "new waters".

Today was a day when I went for a walk. Just like that. Got out of my bed and walked for about an hour just around the area realising how many things I never noticed when I was rushing to the bus,going to the shop or anywhere else,just because every single journey of my life so far had a destination I was always seeking or thinking that things just has to be this way.

The problem is, that in the end, most of us are never sure of what the final destination (not talking about the movie) we see in the end of our road. Trying is the best way to win the race of life. And even if you cannot fulfill all of your goals,even if you don't know what they are, trying to figure it out makes a difference. It gives you a possibility to walk there where no one else managed to go.

As long as you see things around you, and you feel that it is a right thing to do - go for it.
Just don't forget,that the journey may be even better than the place you are planning to visit. Enjoy it, otherwise there is no point to run for the prize.

Erika 16/06/2015